... are all that holds me together.
Turns out the injury is just a first degree tear on the medial side of my left soleus. I'll be running by tomorrow, but no hills or speedwork for a while and unless something changes, the Superior 50K is now just a fun run for me, rather than a goal race. I suppose I should be glad that I've finally learned to stop pushing when hurt; I could've finished the race and I might've even been able to hold pace the whole way if I planned to not race again. Unfortunately, my detractors are going to say I went out too hard and, when it got hard, I made up an excuse to quit.
I'm thinking retirement again. I took up running ultras on trails because I'd retired from short road races (I hated training hard to run a 17 minute 5K, only to finish being the 4th old guy) and thought there'd be no pressure to race. Unfortunately, if I'm not training for a race, I don't run at all - found that out the hard way. Then I won a 50K. So, I thought if I loaded my schedule with tons of races, there'd be no pressure to actually race the races; that didn't work, either.
To keep myself from just not caring, I told everyone what races I was going to do and what I hoped to do at them. That's not working either. I'm thinking that what I should do is just train as I feel with races in mind, but not let anyone know what races or goals I've set and, if I feel like changing plans, no one will hold me accountable. Unfortunately, races fill early (and have lotteries to get in!), so it's hard to just hop into a race when I feel like racing.
And maybe I'll learn not to write about an injury an hour after it happens and wait until I know what it is!
Added: Sounds like fun
6 hours ago