It's hard to get used to the idea that my racing days are over; I keep looking at races to do next year and start making plans. Then I go for a run and quit early and stay retired. There's the injuries, of course, but there's other stuff that I just don't feel like writing about that's making it difficult to run.
The question I've been asking myself is: can I just run without training and racing and, if I can (and that's a big "if"), what's the point of the blog with the title "Run. Race. Repeat?" No one wants to hear about how I struggled with allergies today; how I had the day available and the weather was nice, so I planned a long run only to stop at 8 miles (at about 10 min/mile) with sore heels; how I'm easily fatigued because of anemia (long story not worth telling).
What I've been thinking is that the constant drone of complaint that this blog's become isn't exactly endearing. When I started this blog, I was running with others, but that hasn't happened much in the past year. I think I've been pushing people away - and stopping the blog is just one more way to do that.
I'm thinking that perhaps what I should do is just try to do what I can, try to get my head straight and enjoy the running I can do. Maybe I should start doing runs that are kind of enjoyable, try to describe them and (gasp!) post photos of them, start getting back on trails with friends just for the companionship.
I've always loved pushing myself hard, even too hard. Maybe now what I want is to post things that will make people say, "I want to run with that guy!"
That's a major personality change. Not sure I can do that.
Sunday Night Musings
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