This blog's been all over the place lately, because I'm trying to decide where it should go.
Choice 1: Make it strictly a running blog. There won't be much to say about my own running, as it's rapidly becoming non-existent, so it'd end up being more of an "ask the guy pretending to be a coach" blog.
Choice 2: Continue being random and try to be entertaining. This gets old fast.
Choice 3: Come clean and make this a personal blog. This is a very indulgent, very dark ride. Things are bad in my world right now. How much crap can anyone stand?!
Grudging concessions to reality
I felt I was pulling out of the nosedive of depression. I suddenly had more energy than before, started eating, started running (like someone was shooting at me), started functioning - getting bills paid, repairing the house, etc.
Then I stopped sleeping. I stopped being able to concentrate or make decisions, which has been reflected in my writing of late. I've been continuously anxious, unable to sit still and irritable.
That's just another side of depression.
I've been fighting this battle forever. I'm tired and I'm losing. This is going to get ugly.
You may not want to watch this.
5 days ago